Carson Beckett/Paul McGillion Thunk Thread

[Sparky She-Demon]

How are you doing in terms of catching up with everything, Aang?

[Aang]

Good, procrastinating a bit now, decided to play that new Stargate game on my iPhone.

[Sparky She-Demon]

Good, procrastinating a bit now, decided to play that new Stargate game on my iPhone.

Is it any good?

[Aang]

I will never get used to whoever is voicing General Hammond but it's really Sam, Jack, Teal'c and Daniel!! I've failed my mission twice but it generally starts from wherever you saved it from last

[Sparky She-Demon]

Unfortunately, Don S. Davis is deceased. So they can't get him for the voice of Hammond. How much does the game cost on the iphone?

[Aang]

I know, and I'm sad that happened because the new voice doesn't sound remotely like Hammond

It cost me $5 for it

[Sparky She-Demon]

Argh! Don't have it at the moment on i-tunes.

[DarkenLycht]

Joey: I think it depends on what is more important to you, she can teach you, but only if you really know how to do this by heart and won't fail. you can teach someone else.....otherwise using your gift is very dangerous indeedd and you are lucky that nothing happend to you other than being weak....but yes you will be able to teach your sister since Beck is surely not wanting to harm you...though allow my sister or me to watch over you...what I showed you works only if you can fully concentrate on someone, that means you must befree from pain, which could distract you and even have to, for the time of using your thoughts to attack, block the emotions of those you try to save

*nMichael gets up slowly* don't forget to mention what happens if *he looks at Joey who nodds slightly and then lifts up his arm again* someone reflects your thoughts *he lifts his own arm and makes a movement which reflects Joey's, who winces while the sound of cracking bones can be heard*

*Joey:looks at Aang, smiling a few tears run down his cheek* this happens if you don't shield youself, to make your connection just one way

(oh by the way I have made a drawing of Poet, it's in my Random Artwork album in my profile, as link which shows the image if you klick on it)

[Aang]

I probably shouldn't have spent it but I couldn't help it, I had to play Sam, Jack & Daniel. I love how they sound so much like themselves..

Some C4 should do the trick.

Sorry sir, I'm afraid not. We'll need some kind of explosive, but not C4. It'll have to be something less powerful.

[DarkenLycht]

I probably shouldn't have spent it but I couldn't help it, I had to play Sam, Jack & Daniel. I love how they sound so much like themselves..

Some C4 should do the trick.

Sorry sir, I'm afraid not. We'll need some kind of explosive, but not C4. It'll have to be something less powerful.

hehe

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*walks out of her room* what are you guys doing here? You better go pack your stuff, since we will be leavin tomorrow, instead of hurting each other *Poet goes back to her room not having looked at Aang since she still feels ashamed of her own uselessness*

[Aang]

*I look up at Joey, Poet's emotions stabbing through me like a knife through my heart*

I've...I've had this gift as long as I can remember. When I first met Poet and her guys...I might have said I could never learn to control it...but after my mind shattered while trying to rescue my sister once...my sister, I think she gave me part of herself...she gave me the strength to control what I know how to use already. When we actually got to rescue her, I had to fight my own sister...I had to block out her pain and my own, or I'd never have won...I had to be able to hurt her body in order to save her soul. *I still remember the first pang of guilt I had felt when I had to punch Beck in order to subdue Skyra enough to Zat shock her...*

Blocking emotions...that much I can already do. I've always been pretty good with that. I have my moments when I decide not to control it, like just now when you found me...I'd had it with myself. How I keep hurting your sister when it's not my intention, not at all...I let my emotions take over, to remind myself how much stronger I am now than I used to be.

*I look at Joey, not controlling the emotion I'm currently feeling* I have to talk to Poet, I have to tell her...I have to tell her that I want her to teach me.

[DarkenLycht]

Joey: you see, if you had been taught to use your gift propperlly back then, no one would have harmed your sister so much...I understand you wanted to go with your other sister to save her...but next time...if my sister tells you, she wants to leave and go to save someone, don't ask her to wait..how much that may hurt you right then to not be there...can keep you from hurting much more as if you have waited too long instead, but there won't be a next time probably anyway *he gets up looking down at her, smiling sadly* you have heard her...I will go to help the guys pack their things now *looks at nMichael* come I'll help you...*he looks back at Aang then walks off to nMichael's room with him*

[Aang]

I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I failed Poet. I should have just let her go and save Beck. I would have cried to Dell for a while and then it would have been all over and Beck would have been safe...and I wouldn't have hurt Poet. *I watch as Joey walks away, not sure what I should do next...I want to go to Poet, ask her to teach me, but I am afraid I'll hurt her again somehow...I feel tears building up in my eyes again and I quickly swallow them back, I won't cry again*

*I close my eyes and swallow hard, regaining control of my emotions, and I step into Poet's room. For one brief moment, I let myself realized that my friends are packing to leave...to leave me and my sisters...and then I put the lid back on my emotions and force myself to look at Poet*

Poet...I want...I want you to teach me how to use my gift properly. You're not useless, not to us. I'm just...stubborn and sometimes even mean. And I don't like to admit I am weak. *I look at her carefully*

[DarkenLycht]

*turns to her* you don't really want that, I can hear your thoughts...you just want to because you don't want me to be sad, but that does not help it; Aang *continues to get stuff and puts in in the bag* That's why we need to go somewhere else, to a place where poeple don't feel hurt when you offer them not less than saving those they love, without getting themselves in danger just to prevent any more harm to them and those they care so much for *she wrapps her now empty necklace with the pendant ito a piece of cloth* I would have been happy if I had had such a person to save Joey back then....though I would have died for him, as I couldn't be there to save him. I would have loved someone to do it for me...I wouldn't have felt guilty and sad because I couldn't do it...since alll that would matter to me is that those who I love are save and not who has saved them...*looks at Aang* I don't mean to make you feel useless and weak when want to help you, you are not for sure, but you have to see that I also know, that some things, I just can do faster and with less danger than you could and I want to do them because I want to save you as much as you want to save them....each time you reject me I feel hurt because I jknow if I would do things anyway, it hurts you but I also know I should do them because you won't put youself in danger if I do - I don't knw if such a place exists where people don't care who saves those they love from harm, but maybe we are lucky enough to find it - you have a place where you belong you have aman who loves you, you have sisters who need you, though I always thought if one has all that, they wouldn't mind if someone eöse takes danger on them to get things set straight, for youself to stay save to not harm all people who could not live without you

[Aang]

It...I...It's just that I guess I feel if I let you do everything for me, as much as it would protect me and my sisters from harm...I would feel like I wasn't doing enough. And I would feel that by not being able to save my sisters myself, I am failing them. They would be alive and safe...and I would have just stood by and watched, not done anything to save them myself. And you know I can't just stand by and do nothing.
Poet, when you give so much of yourself to save someone...like bringing Beck back to life...I fear for your health and as much as you don't want me to put myself in danger to save my sisters, I don't want you in danger for me. Do you know how many nights' sleep I have given up, how much time I have spent at your side, doing all I can to keep you with us...and do you know how painful it is every time I come close to losing you?
The...feeling useless...well that isn't all you. In my past...I had someone else, someone who made me feel even worse than this. She truly did believe I was useless and she said it to me more than once...that's why I can't just stand by...I have to do something. It's like I have to prove that person wrong even if she will never know now. It's just a bad memory that haunts me when I feel like perhaps she was right at times. When I can't heal you or one of the guys, when I'm told it's too dangerous for me to try to save my sisters, when...when I lose a patient in the infirmary because I just wasn't good enough to save them.
It's...I really do wonder sometimes, if I had just let you teach me from the start...maybe you wouldn't fear for me as much when I do try to use this cursed gift I am stuck with. Or maybe you would, because I am nothing more than a human. I'm not made for this kind of a gift.
*I finally tear my gaze from Poet's face, still trying to hold back the tears I feel pricking my eyes*