The Martin WooHoodStock Thread

[Jumble]

Tbh, he's part of what makes the nightmares so bad

I have this dream.......

Spoiler:

I see Michael, fading into a misty landscape, his arms held out to me, calling to me. And I try, I try really hard to reach him.... but Martin appears and I get distacted, and before I know it it's too late.......

It reminds me of this song,
Lyrics

Spoiler:

out of the land of shadows and
darkness, we were returning
Towards the morning light
Almost in reach of places I knew
Escaping the ghosts of Yesterday
You were behind me following
closely
"Don't turn around now"
I heard you whisper in my ear
"If you should turn now,
All that you want
Will vanish just like a passing dream.
Just on the very verge of the
morning, daylight was dawning,
freedom was but a step away
Now with the deep dark river
behind us,
what could go wrong if I stayed
strong in mind.
What was the sudden lapse into
madness, what was the urge that
turned my head around to look at him?
What was the stubborn will
to destroy the love and the joy
I nearly held?
three times the thunder roared
in my ears
In all of my years I'll see that lost
look in your eyes.
As, with a sigh like smoke in the wind
You slipped from my grasp into
the waiting shadows
so much I longed to say,
but my touch found only the
empty air and a black nights
coldness.
lnto another world you gone
And never again I can reclaim you.

and I wake with it loud in my head. And it breaks my heart again.

And I know it's all in my head, but still.....

[Regularamanda]

Tbh, he's part of what makes the nightmares so bad

I have this dream.......

Spoiler:

I see Michael, fading into a misty landscape, his arms held out to me, calling to me. And I try, I try really hard to reach him.... but Martin appears and I get distacted, and before I know it it's too late.......

It reminds me of this song, and I wake with it loud in my head. And it breaks my heart again.

And I know it's all in my head, but still.....

Awww Jumble *more huggles* I'm not sure what to say to help and I have no advice to give ...Probably won't help but did you try some wine? Maybe that'll help your nerves a bit.

[Jumble]

Awww Jumble *more huggles* I'm not sure what to say to help and I have no advice to give ...Probably won't help but did you try some wine? Maybe that'll help your nerves a bit.

*hugs Amanda* Honestly, nothing really helps...... but thanks for being there and listening.

I've tried the wine, it's not helping

[Regularamanda]

*hugs Amanda* Honestly, nothing really helps...... but thanks for being there and listening.

I've tried the wine, it's not helping

It's what I'm here for.

Maybe something stronger than wine? Seriously though I wish there was some easy way for you to relieve pain, you can't even get away from it in your dreams.

[Jumble]

It's what I'm here for.

Maybe something stronger than wine? Seriously though I wish there was some easy way for you to relieve pain, you can't even get away from it in your dreams.

Oh, poor Amanda to be the only one here to hear me rant

Time will help, I'm sure it will. Maybe the dreams happen because I hold it together so tightly when I'm awake? Common sense tells me that there has to be some release.

Poor Martin, I feel like I'm blaming him for my misery

[Regularamanda]

Oh, poor Amanda to be the only one here to hear me rant

Time will help, I'm sure it will. Maybe the dreams happen because I hold it together so tightly when I'm awake? Common sense tells me that there has to be some release.

Poor Martin, I feel like I'm blaming him for my misery

I don't mind.

That seems very possible. Maybe if you talked about it more (not that you'd want to though because it wood only cause you were pain I'm sure) but if you get those feelings out (yell, hit something...hit something soft ) do something to just get it out, maybe that will help and then it won't be bottled up and coming out in your dreams.

Martin wood understand I'm sure

[Jumble]

I don't mind.

*hugs you*

That seems very possible. Maybe if you talked about it more (not that you'd want to though because it wood only cause you were pain I'm sure) but if you get those feelings out (yell, hit something...hit something soft ) do something to just get it out, maybe that will help and then it won't be bottled up and coming out in your dreams.

It's hard...... I hate to do it here because I know my WooHoos feel for me....... I hate that it upsets everyone

Martin wood understand I'm sure

*hugs him* If he's the man I think he is, he probably wood

[Regularamanda]

*hugs you*

It's hard...... I hate to do it here because I know my WooHoos feel for me....... I hate that it upsets everyone

*hugs him* If he's the man I think he is, he probably wood

*hugs back*

We all understand Jumble and you know we're here when you do have the need to rant/yell/whatever. And we only get upset because we know it's getting you upset and we don't want that. But we'd rather know that you're not okay than think that you are when you're not.

Exactly

[Jumble]

OhMiGod!!! Someone is actually sticking up for OBPTB

Here

[Jumble]

*hugs back*

We all understand Jumble and you know we're here when you do have the need to rant/yell/whatever. And we only get upset because we know it's getting you upset and we don't want that. But we'd rather know that you're not okay than think that you are when you're not.

I know..... and I love you all for that, but it just goes against the grain for me to put my pain onto my friends.

Exactly

You know, if I ever found out that he's not the perfect man I think he is...... it'll break my heart all over again

And yet, common sense tells me that he can't really be that perfect...

But I'd still love him anyway

Ok, it's past 5am, I really should try to sleep

Thanks Amanda, I really appreciate you being here for me *hugs*

I sometimes find it hard to remember how young you are, you're so mature in many ways

[Regularamanda]

OhMiGod!!! Someone is actually sticking up for OBPTB

Here

Go figure!

I hate it when all they do on there is lash out on the PTB and blame them and all that crap. Granted I've been onto other threads that despise OBPTB but still. At least the PTB still know we're around and most of the time Joe doesn't have that much snarck towards us.

[Jumble]

Go figure!

I hate it when all they do on there is lash out on the PTB and blame them and all that crap. Granted I've been onto other threads that despise OBPTB but still. At least the PTB still know we're around and most of the time Joe doesn't have that much snarck towards us.

It's times like these that I really hope they do know about this thread. Lord knows they need a bit of positive support lately

WoodNight

[Regularamanda]

I know..... and I love you all for that, but it just goes against the grain for me to put my pain onto my friends.

You know, if I ever found out that he's not the perfect man I think he is...... it'll break my heart all over again

And yet, common sense tells me that he can't really be that perfect...

But I'd still love him anyway

Ok, it's past 5am, I really should try to sleep

Thanks Amanda, I really appreciate you being here for me *hugs*

I sometimes find it hard to remember how young you are, you're so mature in many ways

But it's not healthy for you either to keep it bottled up inside...just remember that

Aww, Martin has a lot to live up to I think...but I'm sure he's pretty high up there on you expectations

Get some rest! Night!

You're welcome. I'm really glad you weren't here alone on the thread though so at least you could talk about it a little bit *huggles* and aww thanks I'm totally taking that as a complement! My parents have been told by one of my teachers in 9th grade that I have an 'old soul'

[Luvnjoe]

*whisks in and squishy-hugs Jumble* I know I told Michael squishy hugs were almost always happy, but there are exceptions to every rule! We love you, sweet Jumble! Give yourself time to sort through the ugliness of what happened and let yourself off the hook when you just feel like hiding away!

[starlover]

*huggles Jumble tightly. Nobody excepts you to have it all figured out now! Sometimes it's good to talk about it, or like Amanda suggested just hit something outta frustration (preferably a pillow). As for blaming Martin...it happens, your mind is thinking of a way to figure it all out and perhaps it subconciously thinks this is a way out or so..
*huggles again*