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I bring you: Missing Moments Chapter 17: The Siege.
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17: The Siege
(after the eps)
It had been a rollercoaster and it had left her with one big eyeopening conclusion: she loved John Sheppard. When he had appeared again after his suicide mission, she couldn't hold herself back and had hugged him... it had taken every fiber of her body to stop herself from kissing him in the middle of a very busy gateroom.
Now she was standing on the balcony, outside of the control room, looking over her city, barely believing they could go back to Earth and get back to Atlantis. She couldn't believe Atlantis and her people had survived this impossible situation.
When the door swooshed open, she knew who it was by the bounce in his step.
"Everything is ready and we'll be leaving in two hours."
"Thank you, Major."
He frowned. It had been months since she had called him by his title, besides jokingly, when it was just the two of them. Had he done something wrong?
"Euhm... yeah... no problem."
He noticed her posture was tense... what was wrong with her? For the first time in a long while, he was unable to read her.
"So..." He continued. "Can you believe we're going back to Earth?"
"Yes, it's great." She didn't sound exciting... she didn't make it sound like it was great.
"Elizabeth, what's wrong?"
"Look, Major...."
"And what's up with the rank all of a sudden?" He interrupted her, clearly irritated by her sudden change in posture towards him.
She sighed and turned to him. "I can't do this anymore."
He frowned. "Do what?"
"This..." She sighed again and flayed her hand between them. "Us..."
"Elizabeth..."
"When you were on that suicide mission and I thought you had died, it nearly killed me. I realized... I couldn't..." She sighed again, more out of frustration than anything else because it was only with him that she lost track of what she wanted to say. He was the only one who could render her speechless with one well-aimed puppy-look.
"Lizbeth..." John tried again, softer this time, but she raised her hand and that shut him up.
"We can't continue with this, John. We just can't..."
"And what's this, Elizabeth? Sharing a bed so we can both sleep? Sharing our problems and frustrations? We haven't gone beyond the point of friendship yet, so what's the problem?"
"See, John, you said it. We haven't gone beyond the point of friendship YET. But you know just as well as I do that we will go beyond that point much sooner than later and we can't afford that. Not now, not ever. Not with our positions and responsibilities and I still have Simon to think about, especially now that we're returning to Earth."
The sudden pain on his face was clearly visible, but he quickly hid it. She had seen it though and felt a twitch of guilt.
His face turned blank and he gave her a curt nod. "I'll see you in the gateroom in two hours."
She nodded, turned back to the ocean and heard him leave. Letting out a deep breath, she couldn't help but wonder if she had made the right decision, especially now that they had lost so many of their people and close friends and needed each others support.
(after the eps)
It had been a rollercoaster and it had left her with one big eyeopening conclusion: she loved John Sheppard. When he had appeared again after his suicide mission, she couldn't hold herself back and had hugged him... it had taken every fiber of her body to stop herself from kissing him in the middle of a very busy gateroom.
Now she was standing on the balcony, outside of the control room, looking over her city, barely believing they could go back to Earth and get back to Atlantis. She couldn't believe Atlantis and her people had survived this impossible situation.
When the door swooshed open, she knew who it was by the bounce in his step.
"Everything is ready and we'll be leaving in two hours."
"Thank you, Major."
He frowned. It had been months since she had called him by his title, besides jokingly, when it was just the two of them. Had he done something wrong?
"Euhm... yeah... no problem."
He noticed her posture was tense... what was wrong with her? For the first time in a long while, he was unable to read her.
"So..." He continued. "Can you believe we're going back to Earth?"
"Yes, it's great." She didn't sound exciting... she didn't make it sound like it was great.
"Elizabeth, what's wrong?"
"Look, Major...."
"And what's up with the rank all of a sudden?" He interrupted her, clearly irritated by her sudden change in posture towards him.
She sighed and turned to him. "I can't do this anymore."
He frowned. "Do what?"
"This..." She sighed again and flayed her hand between them. "Us..."
"Elizabeth..."
"When you were on that suicide mission and I thought you had died, it nearly killed me. I realized... I couldn't..." She sighed again, more out of frustration than anything else because it was only with him that she lost track of what she wanted to say. He was the only one who could render her speechless with one well-aimed puppy-look.
"Lizbeth..." John tried again, softer this time, but she raised her hand and that shut him up.
"We can't continue with this, John. We just can't..."
"And what's this, Elizabeth? Sharing a bed so we can both sleep? Sharing our problems and frustrations? We haven't gone beyond the point of friendship yet, so what's the problem?"
"See, John, you said it. We haven't gone beyond the point of friendship YET. But you know just as well as I do that we will go beyond that point much sooner than later and we can't afford that. Not now, not ever. Not with our positions and responsibilities and I still have Simon to think about, especially now that we're returning to Earth."
The sudden pain on his face was clearly visible, but he quickly hid it. She had seen it though and felt a twitch of guilt.
His face turned blank and he gave her a curt nod. "I'll see you in the gateroom in two hours."
She nodded, turned back to the ocean and heard him leave. Letting out a deep breath, she couldn't help but wonder if she had made the right decision, especially now that they had lost so many of their people and close friends and needed each others support.
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