Early the next morning...
*He walked out into the hall, the squad arrived & he handed over the case gently. I had felt his releif & he turned to leave, signaling to his expedition leader through the com link, that he had successfully handed over the tumor. But not a second after he had said that, a loud bang followed by flames engulfed him & he was gone.... I suddenly open my eyes, my heart is pounding, tears streaming down my face, then I hear a voice whispering to me*
Beck? Are you ok?
*I sit up & look around, remembering where I am, Carson is not here & A-Carson is sharing a spare bed with his Aang who he must of moved in the night. Lucky he hadn't moved her far from her big sis, or she would not be to happy with him once she wakes. Apart from the nurse on shift who is checking the vitals of the injured marines on the others side of the room, Rodney & I are the only ones awake. I look over to him & sniff back some tears*
-I, it, I dreamed it again... *I shiver*
Come here. Talk to me
-I, what? *sniff*
*I sometimes forget he can be quite sweet when he want's to be. Then realizing, he's always sweet to me. He always had a soft spot for me, as though I was his own sister, more so than his real sister, not sure why, but I guess the feeling is mutual. I pull back my blankets, climb out of bed, walk over to Rodney's bed as he sits himself up with a pillow behind him & taps the space on the bed next to him. So I climb up onto his bed & sit cross legged close to him so I can whisper quietly*
What dream?
*the tears continue to stream down my face (my lil sis must be well out of it, as she doesn't seem to wake from sensing my emotions), I look at him tearfully with a look that says do you really need to ask*
Oh. That one. I'm sorry Beck.
*He seems to catch on & he pulls me into a hug & I silently cry into his chest, with his arms wrapped around me. At this point Sam Carter silently pokes her head through the infirmary door & looks towards Rodney, who has noticed Sam's arrival & I thought I felt his heart beat quicken as though he had just got butterflies, but I dismiss the thought & Rodney shakes his head at Sam as though to say not now. Sam nods her head & leaves*
But try to remember, you have our Carson now. And he's very much alive & well. I don't know where he is now, but he'll be back. Probably gone for some coffee, he can't have gone far, A-Carson is asleep & we only have that nurse over there at the moment. He wouldn't leave his patents unattended for long.
*I sob into Rodney's chest as he stokes my hair & I whisper back*
-I, I know. *sniff* But it doesn't make the dream any less painful. It did happen. Not in this reality, but it still happened. To me anyway. *sniff* It still kills me to remember it. I see it so clearly in my mind, as if I was there not ten feet away. With what the witnesses said, my dream is dead accurate down to the very last detail. So in away I- I watched him d-die... right before my eyes... *I choke up with tears & Rodney holds me tight cradling me in his arms, wishing Carson would hurry up & get here*
*He walked out into the hall, the squad arrived & he handed over the case gently. I had felt his releif & he turned to leave, signaling to his expedition leader through the com link, that he had successfully handed over the tumor. But not a second after he had said that, a loud bang followed by flames engulfed him & he was gone.... I suddenly open my eyes, my heart is pounding, tears streaming down my face, then I hear a voice whispering to me*
Beck? Are you ok?*I sit up & look around, remembering where I am, Carson is not here & A-Carson is sharing a spare bed with his Aang who he must of moved in the night. Lucky he hadn't moved her far from her big sis, or she would not be to happy with him once she wakes. Apart from the nurse on shift who is checking the vitals of the injured marines on the others side of the room, Rodney & I are the only ones awake. I look over to him & sniff back some tears*
-I, it, I dreamed it again... *I shiver*
Come here. Talk to me-I, what? *sniff*
*I sometimes forget he can be quite sweet when he want's to be. Then realizing, he's always sweet to me. He always had a soft spot for me, as though I was his own sister, more so than his real sister, not sure why, but I guess the feeling is mutual. I pull back my blankets, climb out of bed, walk over to Rodney's bed as he sits himself up with a pillow behind him & taps the space on the bed next to him. So I climb up onto his bed & sit cross legged close to him so I can whisper quietly*
What dream?*the tears continue to stream down my face (my lil sis must be well out of it, as she doesn't seem to wake from sensing my emotions), I look at him tearfully with a look that says do you really need to ask*
Oh. That one. I'm sorry Beck.*He seems to catch on & he pulls me into a hug & I silently cry into his chest, with his arms wrapped around me. At this point Sam Carter silently pokes her head through the infirmary door & looks towards Rodney, who has noticed Sam's arrival & I thought I felt his heart beat quicken as though he had just got butterflies, but I dismiss the thought & Rodney shakes his head at Sam as though to say not now. Sam nods her head & leaves*
But try to remember, you have our Carson now. And he's very much alive & well. I don't know where he is now, but he'll be back. Probably gone for some coffee, he can't have gone far, A-Carson is asleep & we only have that nurse over there at the moment. He wouldn't leave his patents unattended for long.*I sob into Rodney's chest as he stokes my hair & I whisper back*
-I, I know. *sniff* But it doesn't make the dream any less painful. It did happen. Not in this reality, but it still happened. To me anyway. *sniff* It still kills me to remember it. I see it so clearly in my mind, as if I was there not ten feet away. With what the witnesses said, my dream is dead accurate down to the very last detail. So in away I- I watched him d-die... right before my eyes... *I choke up with tears & Rodney holds me tight cradling me in his arms, wishing Carson would hurry up & get here*
We are all asleep in the infirmary, cept me & Rodney, we cuddling on his bed, waiting for Carson to come back.)
Ye din't think I'd move ye too far from y'sister, did ye? I'm no' that sort o' stupid. *he smiles at me and I force a smile back to him*
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