(sorry this took for ever to write! Jae'a your welcome for the mention 
Sparky again? In Rodney's lab? leave the poor man alone, he's like a brother to me & I protect him)
*I wake with a start. The dream again. It's still ongoing & still we are yet to see who it is. I'm quite desperate now. I should be used of the dream by now, but it still gives me the chills every time.
I get up quietly without waking Carson & I go out to the lounge room & sit on the couch. I find myself wondering what my lil sis is doing right now. Sleeping of course! what else? Oh no, no don't go there! Get out! ah! I manage to block my sister out, I can't read her & she can't read me, but still I need a distraction. My wedding! think of my wedding! Think of... my, wedding...
memories begin flooding back... why can't I think of the wedding to come without thinking of the... both weddings I lost... oh god, I have lost two weddings now. I lost my memory of the last wedding and the first... the first was cancelled. Evrything was booked, everything was paid for. The venue, the car, the cake, the flowers. I had the rings, I had my dress, our vowels were written, the kilt... oh that kilt, it was freshly dry cleaned, it hung on a hook, next to my wedding dress. Neither of us ever got to wear them, before... it happened...
I lay down on the couch, curled up into a bawl, the way I did back then, when I was on the floor after kicking & screaming for what seemed like an eternity. I miss my sister, she would understand. I cry myself back to sleep again and the dreams begin...
*I'm looking at my dress & Carson's kilt hanging up in our room; Today is the day. Then I am in my dress standing, staring at Carson in his kilt, waiting for me at the end of isle, there's no music, but we don't notice. I walk up the isle, my friends are sitting in seats watching me, Rodney & Sam, Jae'a & Radek, Sparky & s-Shep they are holding hands with their lovers, they are wearing black.
I look up at Carson, I see my two sisters on one side of Carson & Shep & A-Carson on the other side, he wears a black suit, everyone is wearing black outfits. My Carson he's wearing his head piece, behind him I see a near dead man on an operating table. I'm half way up the isle, Carson smiles at me & nods to Elizabeth, who plays the music, its slow music kinda eery, everyone stands, the seats have gone & everyone starts to twirl with their partners, making the room filled with twirling black dresses.
My sisters & brothers stand still. I already know something is wrong. A-Carson picks up the silver tray that the rings are in & I glimpse something to my horror. I see a fleshy looking thing I recognize, a tumor. There are no rings, just the tumor, its all happening in slow motion, Carson reaches for his ear piece as he walks down the isle towards me & A-Carson moves towards Carson following him slowly with the tumor. I scream for Carson to run, be he just stares at me. A-Carson gets closer & Carson touches the earpiece & I hear his voice through my own earpiece "I love you". Then a fiery ball engulfs him, he is gone.
The fire dissipates & I see Aang running to where both Carson's where moments before. We are both screaming & in the background at the top of the alter, Shep is on one knee proposing to Dell, who is screaming in fear at the sight of a tumor in his hand, while our guests continue dancing to the eery music. we are screaming all sisters screaming. Aang & I on the ground, on our hands & knees.
Then we stop screaming & tears are stained to our cheeks as we both stand up. We are looking to the alter, the operating table is now two coffins draped in two Scottish flags. Aang & I find ourselves standing by our Carson's coffins & we collapse to the ground. Shep is heart broken & angry Dell refuses to take the tumor, so he storms off dropping the tumor by our feet. Another explosion & then I wake up screaming*
Sparky again? In Rodney's lab? leave the poor man alone, he's like a brother to me & I protect him)*I wake with a start. The dream again. It's still ongoing & still we are yet to see who it is. I'm quite desperate now. I should be used of the dream by now, but it still gives me the chills every time.
I get up quietly without waking Carson & I go out to the lounge room & sit on the couch. I find myself wondering what my lil sis is doing right now. Sleeping of course! what else? Oh no, no don't go there! Get out! ah! I manage to block my sister out, I can't read her & she can't read me, but still I need a distraction. My wedding! think of my wedding! Think of... my, wedding...
memories begin flooding back... why can't I think of the wedding to come without thinking of the... both weddings I lost... oh god, I have lost two weddings now. I lost my memory of the last wedding and the first... the first was cancelled. Evrything was booked, everything was paid for. The venue, the car, the cake, the flowers. I had the rings, I had my dress, our vowels were written, the kilt... oh that kilt, it was freshly dry cleaned, it hung on a hook, next to my wedding dress. Neither of us ever got to wear them, before... it happened...
I lay down on the couch, curled up into a bawl, the way I did back then, when I was on the floor after kicking & screaming for what seemed like an eternity. I miss my sister, she would understand. I cry myself back to sleep again and the dreams begin...
*I'm looking at my dress & Carson's kilt hanging up in our room; Today is the day. Then I am in my dress standing, staring at Carson in his kilt, waiting for me at the end of isle, there's no music, but we don't notice. I walk up the isle, my friends are sitting in seats watching me, Rodney & Sam, Jae'a & Radek, Sparky & s-Shep they are holding hands with their lovers, they are wearing black.
I look up at Carson, I see my two sisters on one side of Carson & Shep & A-Carson on the other side, he wears a black suit, everyone is wearing black outfits. My Carson he's wearing his head piece, behind him I see a near dead man on an operating table. I'm half way up the isle, Carson smiles at me & nods to Elizabeth, who plays the music, its slow music kinda eery, everyone stands, the seats have gone & everyone starts to twirl with their partners, making the room filled with twirling black dresses.
My sisters & brothers stand still. I already know something is wrong. A-Carson picks up the silver tray that the rings are in & I glimpse something to my horror. I see a fleshy looking thing I recognize, a tumor. There are no rings, just the tumor, its all happening in slow motion, Carson reaches for his ear piece as he walks down the isle towards me & A-Carson moves towards Carson following him slowly with the tumor. I scream for Carson to run, be he just stares at me. A-Carson gets closer & Carson touches the earpiece & I hear his voice through my own earpiece "I love you". Then a fiery ball engulfs him, he is gone.
The fire dissipates & I see Aang running to where both Carson's where moments before. We are both screaming & in the background at the top of the alter, Shep is on one knee proposing to Dell, who is screaming in fear at the sight of a tumor in his hand, while our guests continue dancing to the eery music. we are screaming all sisters screaming. Aang & I on the ground, on our hands & knees.
Then we stop screaming & tears are stained to our cheeks as we both stand up. We are looking to the alter, the operating table is now two coffins draped in two Scottish flags. Aang & I find ourselves standing by our Carson's coffins & we collapse to the ground. Shep is heart broken & angry Dell refuses to take the tumor, so he storms off dropping the tumor by our feet. Another explosion & then I wake up screaming*
Love, wha's wrong? *he yells after me*
What happened?
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