Carson Beckett/Paul McGillion Thunk Thread

[DarkenLycht]

(hi Sparky )

[Aang]

(Hello look who's back! Sorry, took longer than I wanted, iPhone and laptop were both dead )

[DarkenLycht]

(outch, that's bad, glad you are back now )

[Aang]

(Nah I just wasn't smart enough to charge them this morning, and then abused the iPhone on Fb this morning ahah...got it sorted now though, everything's charging )

[Aang]

*Not in the mood to bother arguing with Beck this morning, as I didn't get a wink of sleep last night for all my worrying and fussing over Dell and Shep, I sigh and let her keep working, turning back to the journal I had been scribbling in. I'd needed a way to get rid of some of my feelings and so I had turned to my old friend, my writing. Though now I was using a new notebook, this one covered in stamps from New Zealand, it had been a gift from my big Sis and I hadn't known what to do with it until now. Now, I sat by her side, writing frantically in this notebook until I looked over to her peaceful sleeping face*

I...I love you, Sis. And I am glad, so glad I didn't lose you. *I smile to her, ignoring everything else in the room outside the beep of the heart monitors and the sound of Shep's light snoring on the other side of me*

[McBecklover]

*sighs at Joey & shakes her head*
-when will she learn, that she dosn't have to & cant always save us. She dosn't need to feel weak & do crazy stuff to herself to try save us from harm. We humans must learn to defend ourselves. We aprecitate her trying to save us all the time but she dosnt have to feel like its her responsibility. We worry when she hurts herself for us & makes us feel bad, that she suffers for us. Shes our friend & we dont want to see her in pain *nMichael appears carrying Poet, i look up & i heave a great sigh at the site on her*
-oh dear friend what have you done?

[Aang]

*looking up at the same time as Beck, I pinch the bridge of my nose for a second, drop the notebook on the table beside Dell's bed and watch what is happening*

Sis, I wish Poet knew...well, I wish she could feel the relief and happiness I feel when I save a life with my bare hands or when I win a fight hand to hand...I may need sleep afterwards-- *I yawn just then but try to hide it* --But it doesn't almost kill me the same as it does her. It would just take a day's good, peaceful rest to-- *I yawn again, forgetting to hide it* --Fix me after I do something to save my sisters' lives.

[Dellruby]

Spoiler:

Dell finds herself standing on the peak where she was thrown from her horse a couple of weeks ago. The wind is howling but she can’t feel it. Below her on the ledge where Shep had found her, sits her wolf spirit guide. She decides to go down to it and is suddenly there…the mear thought took her there.
“Hello” she said as she sat down beside the wolf.
“Hello” it replied. She smiled she hadn’t expected an answer.
“What is happening? Why am I back here?”
“You have a choice to make. Once you have made it I will take you to where you need to be.”
“What choice?”
“This one,” replied the wolf. Then the scene below her changed. The hills and valley’s changed and in their place she saw a corridor in Atlantis. On the floor was her body lying in a pool of blood, next to her lay Poet who was staring straight up, blood coming from a bullet hole in her neck.
She could also see Beck on the floor with blood staining her clothes at her shoulder, and just beyond her lay Shep. She could see the blood staining the back of his uniform and pooling beside him. There were other bodies around them as well, but Dell didn’t know who they were.
“Are we all dead?”
“No, only 2 have a choice to make. One whether to make a grab for power which will ultimately be her death, and you. Your choice is weather to go back to your body, your friends, your life, or move on to the spirit world.”
At this point Dell sees Aang run into the scene, until then she thought she was seeing a static shot, like a photo, now she realized, it was just that no one was conscious. She watched as Aang work on her, the others were being looked after by others, faces she knew, but doesn’t take any notice of.
“If you stay in the spirit realm you will not be tied to this place, we spirits are not bound to just the one reality, we can move freely between them.”
Again the scene below her changed. She was flying over the open ocean. Then she saw a long coast line with wild beaches and cliff’s, as she crossed the coast she flew inland and moments later was flying over rain forests leading up to a range of mountains reaching as far as the eye could see to both the left and right, she knew these mountains, they were the southern Alps. They separate the west coast from the East coast of the South Island of New Zealand. She passed over snowy peaks and mist filled valleys, which gave way to the foothills and the parched Canterbury Planes. She flew over these for some time before coming to the outskirts of the city. She passed over streets and houses until she came to one she knew well. Then she sunk down through the roof until she could see inside. There was a man at the kitchen bench preparing a meal and two young children in the next room, one watching TV, the other playing with some pink and gold ponies. Her children had grown since she saw them last, the youngest had only been 2 ½, now she was almost 4, and the oldest would be at school now. Dell reached out for the little girl with the ponies, but her arms went right through her.
“You cannot touch them, and they cannot see you, but you are free to come and see them whenever you wish.”
Dell went back out to the kitchen and looked at the man she had loved so deeply and he still made her heartbeat race…heartbeat? Did she still have one? A movement caught both their attentions from behind. Dell turned to see a woman walk in, her husband left what he was doing and went over and took this new woman in his arms and kissed her. Dell felt a lump rise in her throat…he had moved on. She couldn't complain, she had Shep now, didn’t she? But it still hurt to see his love for this new woman.
“Mummy!” The youngest girl came running out to be scooped up in the arms of this new woman. Dell’s hand flew to her mouth, her child had forgotten her, she had a new Mummy now, this hurt more than she thought possible.
“Am I that easy to forget?” she cried.
“She is very young, they forget easily.”
“Have they both forgotten me? Has even he forgotten me?”
“He has not forgotten you, but to him you are dead. The other you that came to this reality during the shift was unfortunate. She landed in the middle of a road, and was killed before she knew what had happened. Your oldest child has some memories left, but they are fading. Soon you will just be an unknown face in photos.”
Dell tries to hold back the tears, but is unable too, they stream down her face.
“I love my children, I loved my husband, I would never have left him willingly, but I don’t belong here now, I can’t stay and watch, this hurts too much, I want to go home, I’ve made my choice, I choose Atlantis!”
“The choice is not for the place my lost one, but for either life or death. Even in death, as a spirit, you never have to come back here.”
“I choose life, I want my life with my sisters and Shep back, I’m not ready to leave them yet. I choose life please.”
I’m looking down at myself in a bed in the infirmary, hooked up to bags and monitors. I see Shep in the next bed asleep, Aang sitting between us, Beck is standing down the room a bit with Poet and some of her guys, both in beds and out of them. This is where I belong. My family is here.
“You will have a new spirit guide now, someone who can help you more than I can in this part of the universe. Good luck Dell. Good travels.”
The vision fades, all is black, I’m sleeping.

A tear slips out of my eye and runs down the side of my face.

[DarkenLycht]

What I have done? *she smies weakly, then opens some buttons of her shirt and pulls it away a bit revealing the hole in her chest which does not even bleed anymore* guess I died *she hsivers trying to grab hold of something, then falls down* this is still exhausting much

Gabriel: and totaly unnecessary and dangerous *he looks down sadly at her*

[Aang]

*I look over at my sister and notice the tear on her cheek, my own heart twists as I reach for the emotions buried within her and feel them flow through me...I don't know what she is seeing, but whatever it may be, it hurts. But it also doesn't. I can't work out what the feeling is, at first I feel amazement and then pain and sorrow...and then desperation, maybe a hint of relief. It confuses me, but I reach over and gently brush the tear from her cheek with my thumb, the fact that I feel her at all, even if I really have to try hard...it means she's still there*

[Aang]

*I make a decision at the same time, it's time to wake Dell from her coma...she's ready. I need to hear her voice as much as Shep does, it's been long enough now. I reach over and touch Shep's shoulder as I stand up, shaking him gently*

Shep, I'm going to wake her now. You wanted to be here when she wakes, so it's time to wake yourself up and pay attention. *I say gently to him as he looks up at me and I help sit his bed up so he can see her again before turning to Dell*

Alright, big Sis. Time to come home to your sisters and Shep. *I whisper as I change out the IV bag for a fresh one and lower the painkillers to a manageable level, unhook the blood transfusion bag and move the rack aside from it, and then inject into her IV port, a bit of a clearish liquid, it should bring her out of the coma and she will wake up soon. I pull my chair over and take her hand in mine, but leave enough space for Shep to see her face when she wakes*

[Dellruby]

The dark is changing, it is both getting softer and sharper....the sharp turns to pain, but it is way in the background behind a wall, the softer is the light coming in, then I hear beeping, I find it annoying and wish it would stop. I go to move, and the pain makes a stab at me and I moan. The sound startles me. I open my eyes, it's so bright and white, then there is a shape, it comes into focus.

-Hello Aang. It comes out as a whisper.
Dell, I'm here too.
I turn my head and see Shep. He breaks out into a huge smile. he reaches out to me, but he is to far away.
Hi, I've been waiting for you to come back to me.
-I'll always come back to you, I don't want to be anywhere else in the universe, just here.

[Aang]

*I let out the breath I feel like I've been holding since yesterday and I smile warmly at my sister, still holding her hand in mine*

Hi Dell. It's nice to see you back with us, Sis. *I say it softly, gently, my whole manner has changed for the moment, instead of the harsh Dr. Beckett persona, I'm the loving, caring little sister, all I want is to stay here by my sister's side, being happy that she is alive, and now finally, awake*

*across the room, Beck hasn't noticed Dell is awake yet as she lifts Poet onto an empty bed beside Joey, before Carson nods toward Dell and takes over caring for Poet. Beck looks over and sees Dell awake, and she comes straight over to us, standing beside me*

Beck: Hello there, big Sis. *she smiles gently*

[Dellruby]

-Hey Beck, you look pretty good for someone shot in the shoulder.

[Aang]

Beck: *looks at her shoulder which still bears the bandages from the injury* Well yes, Na'Kita healed my arm most of the--hang on, how did you know I was shot in the shoulder? You've been totally out cold since...before I got shot.

*I also look at Dell in surprise* Wait a second, she's right. We won't get into how I found you, but there's no way you could have known about Beck's injury...could you?