Carson Beckett/Paul McGillion Thunk Thread

[Dellruby]

* I just sit there for a while holding Sheps hand and watching his face for anything to tell me what I should do.*

I can't go, I can't leave Shep.....I couldn't go back to my old life and forget him....I would never be able to get anywhere near your counter parts, I would never get to see anyone from here again. I know I should think of those others, but I just can't.

*I turn to Aang*
I don't want to go *I throw my arm round Aang neck and we are sobbing again*

[Aang]

*I reach up and wrap my arms around Dell, pulling her close to me* I couldn't imagine you leaving us, Sis. *I choke out, sobbing still*

*I finally catch my breath for a moment* I...I mean the others probably didn't even get attached to anyone in their new realities, their lives were so similar anyway...but you...you have a life here with us. With Shep...and me...and the others. *I am hugging Dell tightly still, afraid to let go because she might slip back through the tear and leave me forever if I let go of her*

*comes running back in, this time with her own tablet computer, but skids to a stop as she sees us both falling apart completely again* Umm...if it matters, I found something...it could help. I...I can close the tear in space time...make it so no further damage can be done by it, but it would also seal up the tear so that there would be no chance of you or anyone else returning to their home realities...

*I look up at Sam and hiccup back another sob, as I think over what she said* Y-you mean, you could make it so Dell doesn't have to--can't--leave us? *I sniffle and look at Dell* Do you hear Sam? She has an idea how to stop this...

Only catch, I'd have to show Jack the data we currently have and then I'd have to somehow make it seem like sealing the tear before we send you all back is the only option. I'm...sure I could do it. *she stands there waiting for us to think over what she said*

[Dellruby]

*I look up at Sam*
I would never be able to go back?

"Sam" That is a good thing right?

Yes it is a very good thing! but you are sure you can get Jack to go for it, he might like the idea of getting rid of me, we don't get on very well.

"Sam" I've noticed that, not sure what is going on there, but I'm going to look into it too. I'm sure I can make this sound like the only thing he can do.

Then do it, I want to stay here, well on Atlantis actually, I don't care if I never come back to earth again.

"Sam" Might even be able to swing that too!

[Aang]

*laughs, hiccups, and finally gets control of herself* *whispers to Dell* See, this is why I keep her around!

Um Sam, thank you so much. *I stand up and hug Sam, then take my place next to Dell and hug her again*

You're welcome, Aang. I'd hate to have to separate Dell from all of you, I've seen what she means to you...and what you all mean to her, and I could never ruin that for any of you. *she takes her tablet computer and vanishes again*

*I look at Dell's face and crack a smile* Um, we look a hot mess again, don't we? Here, I have an idea. *I go into a nearby bathroom and return with a couple of wet cloths* Let's not leave Shep this time, so what if we're a little tear-stained when he wakes up...*I wipe my own face clean with one of the cloths*

[Dellruby]

Thanks *I take the cloth and whip my face, wincing at the tender eye area*

Well that's as good as it's going to get I'm afraid!
I know this sounds horrible, but I'm kinda glad Jack made us go on this mission. It would have been terrible if Rollings had finished and I had just disappeared without any warning. We would never know what had happened, and I would be without you all!
I only wish.....

[Aang]

I know, you might have just vanished and we would never have known how or why...and we would have lost you. *I stop talking*...You only wish what? *I look at Dell, my eyes questioning her, trying to figure out what she is thinking*

[Dellruby]

It turned out so bad! If I had never come here, I wouldn't be the wiser, and Shep wouldn't have almost died. I did this to him, it's my fault, I wish I could take time back, and do it different.

[Aang]

Dell, Luv, don't talk like that! If none of this had ever happened, I wouldn't know what it's like to have such a wonderful sister, and Shep wouldn't know what it's like to have such a wonderful girlfriend! He loves you, and you know he would never want you to blame yourself for his getting injured. He would say the fact that you came out of that relatively unscathed would mean that it was a success, he protected you, he did what he came along to do. *I stop to consider Dell's words for a moment* Wait a minute, when you say it turned out so bad, do you mean this mission...or you being in this reality? Because I think the fact that we're so close and that we're all alive...says a lot for both things. *I look down at Shep's pale face and I sort of smile*


(sorry mini bunny happening in my own mind)

[Dellruby]

*I look at her and smile*
I couldn't be sorry I came to this reality, but there are things that would be better if I hadn't come.
What I was meaning was the mission, I wish I could do things different there. If Shep had beamed up with the rest of you, then he would be like this now.

[Aang]

Yes Luv, and you'd be lying down there injured or dead and we might never know it...*I look at Dell, my eyes shining as if I haven't already cried out every tear I am capable of crying today* Just the fact that there were two people down there, that you were with him, meant that we knew when he got injured and were able to do something in time to save him. If he wasn't with you...if you'd been injured, or worse, and we didn't know in time to save you...Shep, Beck, Carson and I would never have forgiven ourselves for leaving you alone. We would have had to live with that on our minds forever...

[Dellruby]

I know, but he would be ok. I'm not sure I'm thinking properly. I just keep going round and round in my head trying to work out how it could have came out better. But everything just keep coming back to here and now!
I just wish he would wake up!

[Aang]

Okay, it's okay. Like Carson said, they're keeping him sleeping on purpose. As long as he's sleeping, he's not in pain. *she puts her arm back around Dell's shoulders as seems to keep happening* There's nothing you could have done to prevent this, you never could have talked him into leaving you alone and you know it. He would do anything to protect you, and he did just that. But he'll be alright. I promise. And I know he won't blame you for it and will probably get very upset if he thinks you blame yourself for it at all.

*I look over at Shep, then back to Dell* Actually, I'm more sorry I agreed to leave you two by yourselves, if I'd stayed I could have rigged one of these cloaks back into a shield. It would have revealed my presence with you and probably added me to someone's hit list...but it might have kept you and Shep both uninjured.

[Dellruby]

There wasn't any time to do anything, it all happened so fast! The only thing I know for sure, is that if there was anyone else down there with us, then I would be sitting beside 2 bedsides. Either that or one of you would be dead!
And I'm glad your not on anyone's hit list. I would have to go out and avenge your death if they got you.

[Aang]

I had...another gut feeling when I beamed up here...that I shouldn't have left you. Do you want to know why I can't ignore gut feelings when I get them? I'll tell you. *I look really scared and guilty in a way*

It was when I was a kid, perhaps 14 years old, I was supposed to work at this Valentines' day dinner...as a waitress. My friend's mother came to pick me up. My dog barked at me for no reason, like he was telling me not to leave the house... and I felt sick...couldn't work out what could be wrong with being a waitress at a dinner. We weren't 15 minutes down the road and I was clutching my cell phone with all the strength I had. Next thing I know, our car is skidding in circles and I'm screaming. Everyone is screaming. What seemed like forever later, the car stops moving and we all wrestle our way out of the car...I was damn lucky I was the only one that day who didn't have to go to the hospital to get stitches. Since then, when I get that sick feeling in my gut, I don't ignore it.

Needless to say, I felt it when you and Shep stayed there alone, but I didn't think I could do anything about it then...and now...*I wave a hand at Shep and Dell* ...This.

(mind that car accident scenario actually happened to me in RL...and I do get those gut feelings that I just can't ignore)

[Dellruby]

I was going to ask that

And I know the same way that if there had been more down with me, there would be more lying here, or worst!
*I hold Aang hand and look at her*
You tell me I couldn't have done anything to prevent this, well neither could you, and I'm just glad you aren't at deaths door as well!